Emily (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} rbrdckysldewstl) wrote,@ 2008-03-12 13:25:00 |
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Next year is going to be hell.
Why is it so hard to decide who to live with? I hate this right now.
Here are the two situations:
#1. The one I officially have said yes to. At the moment.
Upsides: Living with my three best friends. Who are all amazingly excited that I will be there next year. I'll be able to cook a lot, and they'd eat it happily. They have a place to live, very near campus. Rooming with probably my best friend at UCLA. Everyone I talk to (and they talk to) thinks it'll be a blast, and says how amazing the apartment is going to be next year, how fun, etc. They are all in marching band, which is important, because then we can all be obsessed together. I hang out with them pretty much every day, and we all get along.
Downsides: They are all guys. Which means that things might get weird because I'm a girl. They might bring girls home, which would be awkward, but I don't like any of them, so I wouldn't be jealous. I also would not be living with the other group of people, which really bums me out because we were so intent on living together next year starting from this summer. Mommy also isn't as thrilled as she was when I first brought up the situation.
#2. The one I have given up. If only temporarily.
Upsides: Amazing GIRLS. Went to high school with one, have known one for a couple of years, one I met this year. I can be completely myself around them, have girl talk, do each other's hair, etc. It's more of the "norm" of what people do. Probably would have a little cheaper rent. We wouldn't have to buy that much more furniture because one of them already has a couch, TV, table, kitchen accessories, etc.
Downsides: Drama. The whole situation broke up because I don't want them to keep fighting like they did last week. We all have pretty different personalities, which could potentially be a bad thing. Have had drama with one majorly in the past, and can feel that I might with another one or possibly both. We have problems limiting ourselves when we're together (baking, cooking, shopping). They still don't have a lease. I'd be rooming with someone with completely different ideas of how our room should be kept. Only one of them is in marching band, and not nearly as obsessed as I am. I'd also be responsible for finding the other people a fourth, where in this situation, I wouldn't have to.
After talking with a couple people, including an objective observer, I am feeling a lot better about my choice. I was just hoping to get some more opinions before I actually sign papers and stuff. But still, ditching the girls is breaking my heart, and the whole situation is making me want to curl up in a corner and cry. It basically comes down to that fact that I can and can't see myself in both situations. I am usually a very good imaginer when it comes to the future, even if it doesn't end up like how I thought it would, but I still can't imagine living without either of these situations.
Although, making a list did really help me feel better about my choice. Even though the upsides to #2 are better, there are way less downsides to #1.
Help me PLEASE!!! I just want your opinions.
Why is it so hard to decide who to live with? I hate this right now.
Here are the two situations:
#1. The one I officially have said yes to. At the moment.
Upsides: Living with my three best friends. Who are all amazingly excited that I will be there next year. I'll be able to cook a lot, and they'd eat it happily. They have a place to live, very near campus. Rooming with probably my best friend at UCLA. Everyone I talk to (and they talk to) thinks it'll be a blast, and says how amazing the apartment is going to be next year, how fun, etc. They are all in marching band, which is important, because then we can all be obsessed together. I hang out with them pretty much every day, and we all get along.
Downsides: They are all guys. Which means that things might get weird because I'm a girl. They might bring girls home, which would be awkward, but I don't like any of them, so I wouldn't be jealous. I also would not be living with the other group of people, which really bums me out because we were so intent on living together next year starting from this summer. Mommy also isn't as thrilled as she was when I first brought up the situation.
#2. The one I have given up. If only temporarily.
Upsides: Amazing GIRLS. Went to high school with one, have known one for a couple of years, one I met this year. I can be completely myself around them, have girl talk, do each other's hair, etc. It's more of the "norm" of what people do. Probably would have a little cheaper rent. We wouldn't have to buy that much more furniture because one of them already has a couch, TV, table, kitchen accessories, etc.
Downsides: Drama. The whole situation broke up because I don't want them to keep fighting like they did last week. We all have pretty different personalities, which could potentially be a bad thing. Have had drama with one majorly in the past, and can feel that I might with another one or possibly both. We have problems limiting ourselves when we're together (baking, cooking, shopping). They still don't have a lease. I'd be rooming with someone with completely different ideas of how our room should be kept. Only one of them is in marching band, and not nearly as obsessed as I am. I'd also be responsible for finding the other people a fourth, where in this situation, I wouldn't have to.
After talking with a couple people, including an objective observer, I am feeling a lot better about my choice. I was just hoping to get some more opinions before I actually sign papers and stuff. But still, ditching the girls is breaking my heart, and the whole situation is making me want to curl up in a corner and cry. It basically comes down to that fact that I can and can't see myself in both situations. I am usually a very good imaginer when it comes to the future, even if it doesn't end up like how I thought it would, but I still can't imagine living without either of these situations.
Although, making a list did really help me feel better about my choice. Even though the upsides to #2 are better, there are way less downsides to #1.
Help me PLEASE!!! I just want your opinions.
